When was the last time someone told you that they were proud of you? Can’t remember? I just want you to know that I am proud of you. You’ve managed to get through three weeks of being out to sea and you held up pretty good. I know you had a few rough patches when you were ready to say fuck it and hang up your sea bag for good but you did an awesome job. The first week you were a bag of nerves and upset about everything but you picked your head up and kept pushing forward. You have been knocking out your qualifications and starting to remember of the different correspondence packages that have come into your office. I see that some things haven’t changed for you in regards to blocking thoughts of your family out of the way in order to keep a clear mind and honestly, I can’t tell you not to do it because I understand that’s your way of coping with things. I’m just glad that you haven’t blocked them out completely and as an improvement you truly have thought about them everyday and still managed to function. See that’s why I am so proud of you because you always know what to do when you’re faced with adversity you rise to the occasion. You may be thinking it was only a short while and there are plenty of time away yet to come but your taking it one step at a time and I admire that.
I have a bone to pick with you. What is going on with your prayer life? God has been too good to you for you to backslide now. Your potty mouth and negativity is becoming more of a habit again then an occasional slip of the tongue. I know and you know that God has taken care of you at some of the lowest points of your life and your not allowed to put Him in a closet like you’ve put everything and everyone else. You better get it together girl. I know that you are conflicted with how you feel and you may even feel like your being punished but you have to know that your steps were ordered even before you were born. Your situation is only temporary and it won’t last forever.
Keep smiling Prudence. I love you.